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Notes From the 6 Train: Implementing Grace (When Life Changes Without Your Permission)

I just returned from Boston where I attended my best friend’s graduation. Look how beautiful she looked!

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I am beyond proud of my her, she’s essentially my sister, as I’ve known her since we went to kindergarten together. She’s not just good-looking, but also incredibly intelligent & passionate. This fall she will continue her education at Berkeley to get her Phd.

I was slated to graduate this May, but as I am a transfer student, I was set back by just a semester. So I will be graduating in the fall (yay!). For a while, I was quite upset that I wasn’t graduating “on time.” I felt like I was failure, and was ashamed about telling people, as there is stigma about graduating “late” (which I’m not sure what that means since there are significant amount of students who graduate undergrad in more than 4 years.)

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But, as mentioned before, not only am I “okay,” with the fact that I have a remaining semester, but I am thankful for it. There are programs, people and things I would am able to do that are necessary for (that have and will continue to mold my life) if I graduated this May. This was certainly about a bigger plan, divine order if you will.

This, learning to deal with unforeseen circumstances with grace, is one of the most important lessons I’m learning, which has been spearheaded by college events. If I hadn’t, I would have been at my soul sister’s graduation reeling with hidden jealously and disappointment. However, knowing, confidently that both of our paths are leading us to passionate,full lives of magic and love, I was able to be in present and overwhelming proud with a heart of joy.

Sometimes, we set plans and things change. And that’s okay. A quote I heard recently and identified with a lot is “we make plans & God laughs,” that’s life. Let go of the reins and enjoy the ride.

All Things Color, Love & Fashion,
Ayanna Lane

Notes From The 6 Train: Acceptance!

“Ahhhhhhh!” That was the first sound to escape my mouth when I my parents told me that I was accepted into FIT. I couldn’t believe it. This was such a special moment for me. Firstly, I had completed the entire application overseas while I was in South Korea. This entire process was much for difficult than I ever would have anticipated. Due to the 13 hour time difference, correspondence to the United States was a struggle. Whenever I had a question or wanted to confirm that my paperwork had been received I would have to call, sometimes late in the evening, because that’s when it was morning/ daytime in the United States. Actually being able to call was a struggle. I didn’t have an international phone so I relied on Skype call, without knowing that when I was overseas I wouldn’t be able to use my American debit card to add any more cash. One of my close friends added money to account for me and even called FIT a few times for me. Throughout this entire process I became quite frustrated and considered stopping my application midway through the process.

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As a senior in high school I didn’t even fill out the application to go to FIT because I didn’t think I would be accepted, knowing how competitive this school is. A year and a half later, while overseas in South Korea, I had finally gained enough self confidence to take a shot. This shot paid off! With help from a lot of people, especially my friend who put money in my account and pestered the kind at FIT for me, my dream was realized. It took a journey for me, but I it all worked out the way it was suppose to, with me at FIT. What was your experience of applying to FIT?

All things Color, Love & Fashion,

Ayanna L.

Notes From the 6 Train: Breaking Up With Heartbreak

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( Don’t take Wiz Khalifa’s advice!)

Between midterms, applying for scholarships and summer internships/ jobs, working on honors project, and the million other things most FIT students are doing, it’s easy to become a bit scattered brained. Not to mention something I hadn’t planned for, a very abrupt ending to an three & half year experience ( ranging from relationship, to friendship and many complicated middle passages) with someone I really cared about, of which I was informed through a text message. Usually, I don’t get personal on this blog, but as a writer, I am committed to to telling the truth, whatever that means. And I know that this is not just my truth, because breakups are a universal experience. They happen, usually at the most inconvenient times, ( what is a “convenient time,” though) and, if you let them, have the ability to completely throw you off. Here’s a mini list of things I’m doing while in this transitional period in my life.

You can’t control what people do, but you only how you respond. Be sad. After putting you’re all into something and it doesn’t work out, you’re allowed to be sad. Trying to ignore what you’re feeling isn’t healthy, and you’re doing a dishonor to yourself. But don’t let the sadness consume you. Give yourself a prescribed amount of time to be sad, a week, a month, three months, whatever that may be and then, begin to move on.

Reach out to your support system. I am fortunate to have an amazinggg support system. Unfortunately, we’re scattered across the globe, but despite that I’ve received love from all over. My sister queen in LA even sent me an inspirational video of her dancing around. Another friend, this one located in NYC, brought me so magical Indian food, (I’m totally a believer that food holds healing qualities) and just hung out with me. If you don’t have anyone in New York, and just need someone to talk to, that’s what the health center is for. Sometimes you just need a good cry, in a private place, between classes and that’s what the FIT therapist’s offices are for.

Spoil yourself. Sometimes when we become accustomed to other people treating us well, we stop doing it ourselves. Breakups are the universe’s little reminder that you always deserve to be treated well. So, spoil yourself, whatever that means. Whether that means that extra piece of cake or getting those shoes you’ve been eyeing. Hey, you know they’ll never leave you. For me, that meant going to acupuncture ( at FIT for free) which is super relaxing, eating veggie burgers all weekend (which I’ve discovered is my comfort food) and NOT running all over New York, for once. Allowing myself to relax, if only for a week, is a treat in it’s self.

There are lots of other tasks I have taken up during this growth period but there’s no way I can list them all. I think that most important is remembering to be happy. Happiness is definitely a choice. I am coming to peace with my past, all the good and the bad, and am excited about what’s next. Everyday I wake up and remember “you’re young, you’re living in New York and this is all to prepare for whatever greatness lays ahead.” I hope you tell yourself the same.

All things Color, Love & Fashion,

Ayanna L.